mood: TIME FOR RECREATIONAL READING! FINALLY!
[wow, that's so lame]
music: Ashlee Simpson - Boyfriend]


i went and vaporized again.



but i'm back in action. and significantly less angsty.



academically, socially, physically, and extra-curriculatively [not a word] , this was a fucking hard semester. i came into this with a lot fire and focus, but the damn thing still managed to kick me around. i pouted, i cried, i seriously contemplated dropping out of school next semester. hell, when i surprised myself and the world by going back to omaha for thanksgiving i was thisclose to withdrawing right then.

after a great deal of grief and one week with 4 all-nighters [i finally feel like i've earned my college student badge] it seems as though i have pulled through. and i think i can say that i'm a bit refreshed. don't know, something about knowing that i fucking suffered but survived makes me feel a bit triumphant. and elitist. because i earned my grades. with blood, sweat, and tears. yes, blood. i wouldn't ask about that story if i was you.

so now i get to do things like go out to dinner, move out of the stars office, return the 42 books i have checked out, sleep, and read books that have nothing to do with class. i haven't done that...since...well, i don't know. i guess i did some recreational reading in europa, but that doesn't count. i suppose i haven't done any reading for my own personal enjoyment while in the united states since around 1872. yeah, it's been a while.

so i'm gonna do that now.
and take a nap.



i don't know if i can handle all this free time.


i might get into trouble.