mood: content
music: dave matthews band - best of what's around
- interesting things will be going down in my apt in the next few weeks
- i turned in the best paper ever written
- i think i've decided to go ahead and declare that crazy philosophy second major i was originally intending to pursue -sociolgy will then become a minor, perhaps along with peace studies
- i got particularly drunk this weekend and looked REALLY hott doing it
- i'm turning into jacob ware (don't ask)
- i'm going to go to all of my classes this week...i promise
- i am irrationally exuberant about voting on tuesday
- i am ridiculously addicted to thefacebook
- i've accidentally discovered at least two new sets of best friends?
- lampland boulevard should be able to resume a somewhat normal posting schedule
- tess was finally able to speak to frat matt this weekend (the universe is coming unraveled at its seam...just look up and to your right...see?)
and kelly is back home (hazaa!) and jeff is back in santa clara making us all more uncomfortable than ever!
sometimes i can't help but just laugh at my crazy ass existence. oh man, oh man...
Sunday, October 31, 2004
Friday, October 29, 2004
mood: bad
music: belle and sebastian -dear catastrophe waitress
it's a struggle. i just have to make it to nov 5 and everything will be okay. i'm going to go to my brother's house for the weekend and regain some sense of sanity. the problem is not that we haven't had an adequate number of breaks, it's just that i've stayed here during all of them. i need to get away. i grow so weary of...people. there are probably about 6 that i can still stand to spend close, intimate time with. the boulevard, the facebook, and taize services do mitigate the severity somewhat. god, i always feel so balanced and grounded after taize. but more and more i find i can't concentrate as much during the service and i can't hold on to the feeling as long.
right. just need to get away. sign off aim, refrain from checking my email, and turn my cell phone off.
a true break from the world. wouldn't that be novel? what a beautiful idea.
music: belle and sebastian -dear catastrophe waitress
it's a struggle. i just have to make it to nov 5 and everything will be okay. i'm going to go to my brother's house for the weekend and regain some sense of sanity. the problem is not that we haven't had an adequate number of breaks, it's just that i've stayed here during all of them. i need to get away. i grow so weary of...people. there are probably about 6 that i can still stand to spend close, intimate time with. the boulevard, the facebook, and taize services do mitigate the severity somewhat. god, i always feel so balanced and grounded after taize. but more and more i find i can't concentrate as much during the service and i can't hold on to the feeling as long.
right. just need to get away. sign off aim, refrain from checking my email, and turn my cell phone off.
a true break from the world. wouldn't that be novel? what a beautiful idea.
Tuesday, October 26, 2004
mood: being sick makes me tired
musc: keane - somewhere only we know
i gave in. went to the wellness center. i was expecting them to tell me some bullshit about me being pregnant and send me on my way with a few coughdrops. surprisingly enough, they were very helpful. i got some druuuuugs and whatnot, so in a couple days i should start feeling better. in the meantime i guess my goal is to stop falling down. seems pretty reasonable to me.
COUNTDOWN
4 days till party time at laura's
5 days till halloween
10 days till chilli fest at bro's
30 days till thanksgiving
musc: keane - somewhere only we know
i gave in. went to the wellness center. i was expecting them to tell me some bullshit about me being pregnant and send me on my way with a few coughdrops. surprisingly enough, they were very helpful. i got some druuuuugs and whatnot, so in a couple days i should start feeling better. in the meantime i guess my goal is to stop falling down. seems pretty reasonable to me.
COUNTDOWN
4 days till party time at laura's
5 days till halloween
10 days till chilli fest at bro's
30 days till thanksgiving
Friday, October 22, 2004
mood: sleepy
music: nico - fairest of seasons
shit. i'm alive. it's a miracle.
THINGS THAT THE GENERAL PUBLIC MAY OR MAY NOT KNOW OR CARE ABOUT
fall party part deux was badass. can't wait till winter party.
i'm so fucking sick. i might just die this time.
michael gonring has never been inside of me. not during medea - not ever. (neither has thulani - though ryan holds that he came pretty damn close. whatev...lies)
some things NEVER happened. (Except for maybe that one thing with that one person whose name may or may not rhyme with Lat Findland)
if you're reading this, i will probably be sending you a letter about my service trip to france, begging you for money (even just a little change). so you might as well leave your address in the comment section. because i am going to find you. one way or another.
usually llamas make a humming sound, but when frightened or attacked, make a shrill screaching noise.
music: nico - fairest of seasons
shit. i'm alive. it's a miracle.
THINGS THAT THE GENERAL PUBLIC MAY OR MAY NOT KNOW OR CARE ABOUT
fall party part deux was badass. can't wait till winter party.
i'm so fucking sick. i might just die this time.
michael gonring has never been inside of me. not during medea - not ever. (neither has thulani - though ryan holds that he came pretty damn close. whatev...lies)
some things NEVER happened. (Except for maybe that one thing with that one person whose name may or may not rhyme with Lat Findland)
if you're reading this, i will probably be sending you a letter about my service trip to france, begging you for money (even just a little change). so you might as well leave your address in the comment section. because i am going to find you. one way or another.
usually llamas make a humming sound, but when frightened or attacked, make a shrill screaching noise.
Sunday, October 17, 2004
Friday, October 15, 2004
mood: anxious
music: the shins - chutes too narrow
not much to say. a crazy week. (so busy i didn't even get to hang out with ivna) even crazier one coming up. i have two midterms and a research paper due on thursday. wtf? yeah, i know. at least the first cast party of the year is tonight. and you know what that means. drunk drunk drunk taria. which is always good fun for all. i'm so worn out from being sick (long story) and working that it's only appropriate that i get trashed tonight. and i'll probably make out with someone (ooh a scandal for Lampland Boulevard!). so there. take that learning. take that schooling. take that education. i will spite you tonight. i will spite you good...
bill (aka rico suave, bildo, or carlos von sexron?!) comes this weekend. get excited for this one kids...
music: the shins - chutes too narrow
not much to say. a crazy week. (so busy i didn't even get to hang out with ivna) even crazier one coming up. i have two midterms and a research paper due on thursday. wtf? yeah, i know. at least the first cast party of the year is tonight. and you know what that means. drunk drunk drunk taria. which is always good fun for all. i'm so worn out from being sick (long story) and working that it's only appropriate that i get trashed tonight. and i'll probably make out with someone (ooh a scandal for Lampland Boulevard!). so there. take that learning. take that schooling. take that education. i will spite you tonight. i will spite you good...
bill (aka rico suave, bildo, or carlos von sexron?!) comes this weekend. get excited for this one kids...
Monday, October 11, 2004
mood: i heart my poppits
music: guster - two points for honesty (still)
hung out with a completely different group last night. jeff and brian came over early and general good times were had. let's just say that now my winter has is attached to the adult mobile. who could ask for more? eventually i left and ice creamed at kaffeine with osh, eric, osh's other roommate jason (who i never knew even existed and is kind of cute), and little freshman adam (who is definitely a favorite now). i had the best caramel apple pie sundae. in fact, it was a little too delicious and it killed my soul a little. valmont was there. that's all i'll say about that.
after an unsuccessful attempt to obtain the necessary liquers for amaretto sours (classy! but we got to bruno's the very moment they were closing). i went to watch the moon rise with my poppits: brian, jeff, kelly, and bethiii. so much fun. a definite discovery was made: we all have to hang out - just the five of us - all the time. and we'll be like a teen drama. in fact, we have a title and a theme song and everything...except characters. but that's cool. how hard is it really to act like a big dumb highschooler. hell, we all did it for at least 4 years. i'd say we're pros by now...
alright. time to jet. a fun-filled day with erica and laurence is in order. followed by a naughty night most likely...but that was assumed wasn't it?
music: guster - two points for honesty (still)
hung out with a completely different group last night. jeff and brian came over early and general good times were had. let's just say that now my winter has is attached to the adult mobile. who could ask for more? eventually i left and ice creamed at kaffeine with osh, eric, osh's other roommate jason (who i never knew even existed and is kind of cute), and little freshman adam (who is definitely a favorite now). i had the best caramel apple pie sundae. in fact, it was a little too delicious and it killed my soul a little. valmont was there. that's all i'll say about that.
after an unsuccessful attempt to obtain the necessary liquers for amaretto sours (classy! but we got to bruno's the very moment they were closing). i went to watch the moon rise with my poppits: brian, jeff, kelly, and bethiii. so much fun. a definite discovery was made: we all have to hang out - just the five of us - all the time. and we'll be like a teen drama. in fact, we have a title and a theme song and everything...except characters. but that's cool. how hard is it really to act like a big dumb highschooler. hell, we all did it for at least 4 years. i'd say we're pros by now...
alright. time to jet. a fun-filled day with erica and laurence is in order. followed by a naughty night most likely...but that was assumed wasn't it?
Sunday, October 10, 2004
mood: lazy day
music: guster - two points for honesty
fall break goodness. an odd series of days so far. friday night andypants, the durk and i got an early start on things by drinking before we went to see liaisons. andy and the durk were pretty tipsy. that shit was funny. the play was good. the cheese cubes, diet coke, and pumpkin pie at the reception afterwards was better. but that may just be because i can eat those. one surely cannot eat a play. well, maybe the grimace can. but he can do a lot of things i can't. andy, lindsey cacich, and bethiii came back to the apt and we all drank merilly and ordered free food while a drunk durk attempted to pack for nyc. kelly, donna (kel's wicked cool bff from home), and jeff eventually came over and joined the festivities. good times were had in santa clara 4d. we then went to stephanie velasco's apt (the best party choice EVER since she lives across the street). things got pretty crazy there. fun stuff. amaretto sours. mmm. i think dan punched me in the liver, though. but coming from him that's probably just a sign of endearment. our little group left at some ridiculous time in the morning and went and sat by the lake (ROCK MAN!). i don't remember much outside of the iambic scattameter incident, but i know it was good fun...i think i was in bed by 6. but that's debatable i suppose...
saturday i got up at like 2. lunched with osh who talked nonstop about batboy! and then went to his apt for callbacks. good stuff. carla was there most of the time and i.fields was there for a bit. the three of us together are totally allstars. you know its true. i got back home at around 8 i think. napped until kelly woke me with what sounded like a rogue attempt to bust through a door instead of opening it. that experience left me wholly disoriented. then she left to hit up bruno's with bethiii. the durk was already gone and meghan was "indisposed" with louis and nick at his apt. so i sat around alone and bored for a while. in some strange turn of events i ended up with osh and laurence on belmont at clarke's at 1:45 in the morning. now for those of you who know the belmont area, being there at such a time on a weekend can only result in a lot of wackiness: transvestites, pimps (in full attire complete with pinstriped suits, feather in hat, and canes), and potted plants mysteriously falling from the sky. and that's all i have to say about that. we then met up with oregonites beth and kate. it was kate's 21st bday and she was stupid drunk (she kept saying the craziest things to and about me - funny stuff, ask me sometime). she made beth go with her to the oasis (beth doesn't have a fake) and stand outside for 2 minutes while she went inside. just because she could. after that venture we went back to beth's place, which was a little surreal. i.fields was passed out and this girl who i didn't know was pseudo-sleeping on the couch. but they did have some badass birthday cake and this hilarious artsy book that had something to do with chickens? i don't remember the title, but will own it someday. then osh drove us all - plus stupid drunk kate - back home.
today is a lazy lazy day. i was going to study, but then i realized i don't have much to study for. good stuff. i may spend some time in shakespeare for characterization since i haven't turned in my homework for a week. it's a good thing dr. gabel loves my ass...might go take some pics around the city. might drop in on laurence at work. who knows.
i think i'm partying with "the boys" tonight. now that's guaranteed to be good times. you can expect some sordid tales from that soon...
music: guster - two points for honesty
fall break goodness. an odd series of days so far. friday night andypants, the durk and i got an early start on things by drinking before we went to see liaisons. andy and the durk were pretty tipsy. that shit was funny. the play was good. the cheese cubes, diet coke, and pumpkin pie at the reception afterwards was better. but that may just be because i can eat those. one surely cannot eat a play. well, maybe the grimace can. but he can do a lot of things i can't. andy, lindsey cacich, and bethiii came back to the apt and we all drank merilly and ordered free food while a drunk durk attempted to pack for nyc. kelly, donna (kel's wicked cool bff from home), and jeff eventually came over and joined the festivities. good times were had in santa clara 4d. we then went to stephanie velasco's apt (the best party choice EVER since she lives across the street). things got pretty crazy there. fun stuff. amaretto sours. mmm. i think dan punched me in the liver, though. but coming from him that's probably just a sign of endearment. our little group left at some ridiculous time in the morning and went and sat by the lake (ROCK MAN!). i don't remember much outside of the iambic scattameter incident, but i know it was good fun...i think i was in bed by 6. but that's debatable i suppose...
saturday i got up at like 2. lunched with osh who talked nonstop about batboy! and then went to his apt for callbacks. good stuff. carla was there most of the time and i.fields was there for a bit. the three of us together are totally allstars. you know its true. i got back home at around 8 i think. napped until kelly woke me with what sounded like a rogue attempt to bust through a door instead of opening it. that experience left me wholly disoriented. then she left to hit up bruno's with bethiii. the durk was already gone and meghan was "indisposed" with louis and nick at his apt. so i sat around alone and bored for a while. in some strange turn of events i ended up with osh and laurence on belmont at clarke's at 1:45 in the morning. now for those of you who know the belmont area, being there at such a time on a weekend can only result in a lot of wackiness: transvestites, pimps (in full attire complete with pinstriped suits, feather in hat, and canes), and potted plants mysteriously falling from the sky. and that's all i have to say about that. we then met up with oregonites beth and kate. it was kate's 21st bday and she was stupid drunk (she kept saying the craziest things to and about me - funny stuff, ask me sometime). she made beth go with her to the oasis (beth doesn't have a fake) and stand outside for 2 minutes while she went inside. just because she could. after that venture we went back to beth's place, which was a little surreal. i.fields was passed out and this girl who i didn't know was pseudo-sleeping on the couch. but they did have some badass birthday cake and this hilarious artsy book that had something to do with chickens? i don't remember the title, but will own it someday. then osh drove us all - plus stupid drunk kate - back home.
today is a lazy lazy day. i was going to study, but then i realized i don't have much to study for. good stuff. i may spend some time in shakespeare for characterization since i haven't turned in my homework for a week. it's a good thing dr. gabel loves my ass...might go take some pics around the city. might drop in on laurence at work. who knows.
i think i'm partying with "the boys" tonight. now that's guaranteed to be good times. you can expect some sordid tales from that soon...
Friday, October 08, 2004
Monday, October 04, 2004
mood: ?
music: ben folds five - whatever and ever amen
today i realized that i don't know very many of the little details about my brother's life. and yet i love him so much and feel so close to him. i suppose i could always ask him.
before that i realized that i don't know much of anything about my father's life. and yet i love him with everything i am and at times feel incredibly close to him. but it is much too late to ask him.
death is so permament. sometimes i feel like i can't handle it. i know one day he'll call to say hello. and he'll apologize for being away for so long. and he'll dote on me and tell me how proud he is. and then we'll set up a day to get together. we'll make up for missed time. a day to catch up.
i feel like i'm so far behind... i can never catch up.
music: ben folds five - whatever and ever amen
today i realized that i don't know very many of the little details about my brother's life. and yet i love him so much and feel so close to him. i suppose i could always ask him.
before that i realized that i don't know much of anything about my father's life. and yet i love him with everything i am and at times feel incredibly close to him. but it is much too late to ask him.
death is so permament. sometimes i feel like i can't handle it. i know one day he'll call to say hello. and he'll apologize for being away for so long. and he'll dote on me and tell me how proud he is. and then we'll set up a day to get together. we'll make up for missed time. a day to catch up.
i feel like i'm so far behind... i can never catch up.
Sunday, October 03, 2004
music: howie day - stop all the world now
mood: all these places feel like home...
the day was what i would call "absentmindedly beautiful." cool and crisp. breezy. unobtrusively sunny. gorgeous. but you wouldn't immediately realize it. but as i stood on the el platform with the sun reflecting in my eyes, my hair blowing around my face, and howie day's perfect time of day playing from my headphones around my neck, it dawned on me.
and in all that beauty i could recall all the times i've looked at the stars. and the feeling of sand between my toes. and watching the moon set in mexico. and playing in the warm rain. and cuddling close. and the serenity of sunrises. and losing myself in the flow and ebb of the sound of waves. and laying in the bed of a pickup truck under the endless texas sky with my best friend in the whole world wondering at just where life was taking us.
and knowing it was taking me to that very moment.
mood: all these places feel like home...
the day was what i would call "absentmindedly beautiful." cool and crisp. breezy. unobtrusively sunny. gorgeous. but you wouldn't immediately realize it. but as i stood on the el platform with the sun reflecting in my eyes, my hair blowing around my face, and howie day's perfect time of day playing from my headphones around my neck, it dawned on me.
and in all that beauty i could recall all the times i've looked at the stars. and the feeling of sand between my toes. and watching the moon set in mexico. and playing in the warm rain. and cuddling close. and the serenity of sunrises. and losing myself in the flow and ebb of the sound of waves. and laying in the bed of a pickup truck under the endless texas sky with my best friend in the whole world wondering at just where life was taking us.
and knowing it was taking me to that very moment.
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