mood: pasando tranqui
music: john mayer - heart of life


once again i'm reminded that my penchant for mellowdrama keeps me from seeing the forest for the trees. i've faced it. this week will be a hell week. major life decisions, projects, proposals, and papers to be dealt with each day. it will be a shit show of chaos. but i always work better under those circumstances, anyway. and really, if i failed each and every one of those tasks -- which, in reality, i most likely won't have 1/80 the problems i'm anticipating -- it's not the end of the world. i'll get over it. like i always do. like everyone always does.

the reality?
crash and burn. pick up. drink it away w/ your amigos. move it along.

c'est pas grave.
c'est pas la mer a boire.

mood: hum and drum
music: modest mouse - one chance


i kind of feel like it's all starting to come together.
but for some reason i can't shake the feeling that i'm still getting it all wrong.

mood: restless
music: imogen heap - hide and seek


am i allowed to make new year's resolutions in september? whatev, i do what i want.


anyway, the goal is to spend much less time on facebook. it never leads to any good.

mood: suspicious
music: stacie orrico - (there's gotta be) more to life


patience is a bitch.

and you know, i've made peace with the fact that i was born with almost none. and i've been trying my damndest to foster some within myself. but. guess what you need in order to do that?


...yeah.

mood: sleepy
music: inmigrantes - golpe de suerte


the last time the upstairs neighbors had a party i came home to a guy throwing up as he walked down our hallway and into the area near the front door so that he could throw up in our shared trash can. he barely missed wretching on my brand new shoes.

this time looks to rival the previous one. there is someone currently peeing outside one of our living room windows.