mood: accomplished!
music: badly drawn boy - year of the rat
lyirc: "every day we've got to hold on. cause if we hold on, we could find some new energy."

*you bitches better start loving me, 'cause once i'm gone, i'm gone...
camp: 3 days
chicago: 12 days

woot. i'm feeling pretty good. packed my first box today AND threw away all the papers i didn't need and organized the ones i kept. once again it's serving to finalize that nagging fact that i'm peacing out of here pretty soon. but it also got me excited. i made a list of 20 goals for first semester and had an amazing epiphany. this year is a blank slate, an empty vase, unmolded clay, fresh canvas. freshman year was absolutely marvelous, but it came with strings attached: will i like it, will i be successful, can i handle this, will i grow up; all that crazy adjustment and feeling things out pretty much came first and left minimal time for genuine decision-making and creativity. this year will be whatever i make of it. good. bad. bittersweet. i am the main player in this game and i am the one calling the shots. a daunting thought when you consider the responsibility and consequences that loom. incredibly exciting when i envision the endless possibilities. and the knowledge that i will absolutely begin to truly come into myself and shape my life - well that's roughly as invigorating(!) as life can get.

that is all...thank you.