^Aloha...i want so badly to believe...

^I don't understand. I don't understand it at all. And I don't like it. It's slowly but surely driving me crazy. I can't handle it. I don't like to cry- and this has had me crying for nearly a whole day. At first I thought it would be one of those cries that's relieving. But all I feel is emptier. Is my heart broken? It seems like such a miunscule issue...so then why can't I get past it...why can't I stop feeling so disheartened and afraid and stupid? I wish I someone would sing me to sleep...it sounds so much prettier than tears...

^That is all...thank you.