mood: curious
music: maroon 5 - she will be loved

last night was interesting. sinley took his pants off while we watched fucking horrendous scary movie 3. rachel dellovecchio, i want my time back...

anyway, i went driving about an hour ago. found a dary queen that happened to be open so i got some sweet sweet cheescake ice cream. then it started to rain. i left the windows down and turned my music up. it was nice. the combination of the rain, the wind, the heat, the amazing lightning, the ice cream and the radio made me terribly nostalgic. and right now i'm truly longing for clayton, jenna, linnea, dani, heather, steph, alisha and my life in wichita falls. but i don't want the significantly altered and severely complicated life i would have if i went back now. i want the somewhat simplified life i had there back in freshman year and the summer after when i visited for a month.

and i was reminded of all the conversations and anti-conversations that i had with clayton. gosh i miss talking to him. most of you know how much i adore that friendship, and i can't reinforce that enough. but anyway, i keep replaying one particular exchange in my mind. he asked me what i wanted out of life. but he wasn't particularly interested in the dull things like jobs, spouses, houses and kids - or lack thereof. he was referring to interpersonal relationships - the tiny little emotional and otherwise intangible things that i wanted out of life. i doubt he remembers this, but i do - because i couldn't really come up with an answer. and years later, i'm not entirely positive that this has changed. so i think i'm going to sleep on this and see if i can't come up with something.

i do know that i am having the worst craving ever. only problem is that it's for some stuffed and havanna shrimp from el capitano's, located on the beach in mazatlan, sinaloa, mexico. damn. and oh, i want it bad.

this cannot be denied. many have tried...and have been served. (do we like this as the new endline for posts? versus the old "that is all...thank you" shoot a comment)