^Aloha~ (jen, funny you should mention the random imploding of things, seeing as how we then had that fire alarm)
^In other news, tonight was nothing short of some wisdom being restored back into my mind that had been taken over by Ap Chem equilibrium equations.Why is it that we as humans must struggle to let life take on the course that is was meant to? There is little we can do in and of our own meaningless powers to change what ultimately must come to pass. We can worry and frown and fret until we find ourselves literally ill from the extra stress we have taken on emotionally. We can drown an entire race of people with our bitter tears. We can bend over backwards and manipulate until we've woven a web that is phenomenally more complex than the universe itself. Yet none of these things - in the end - can alter the flow of what we know is life. I am not saying that you should not be proactive. You should do what it is that you can to make things turn out positively, but there is a thin line between that and the way most of us handle things. Now this is no new theory. This is nothing that I'm sure isn't expessed in at least ten thousand works and literature. And still we grapple with the idea of letting go. I am reminded of some parable out of my childhood - I shall rephrase it:
^There was once a man who discovered gold in the depths of tree. He reached his hand into a hole in the bark of the tree to pull it out, but when he grasped his fortune, he could no longer remove his hand. He tried every position possible, but could not free himself. The jagged tree bark scrached his arm to the point of blood; it was hopeless. The man was in excruciating pain... he could take it no longer. Resigned, he let go of the gold and his hand slid easily out. He was much happier to have his hand than to have the gold, which was easily removed later.
^In life, we cling so tightly to what we think we need and or want. Sometimes we want that thing so badly that we lose sight of the damage we are doing. Instead of loosening our holds on that which is out of our control, we cling only tighter until we have scratched our souls to the point of agony. At this point, there are some song lyrics that come to my mind (From "Let It Go" by the Newsboys) I hope these lyrics aren't offensive to you. Just allow yourself to think upon their meaning as it can be attributed to experiences in your life...

Will you forgive?
Will you forget?
Will you live what you know?
Beneath the cross,
you hear his words,
"Father forgive them."
And you know
you can't understand it.
Let it go.

^Forgve the fact that what you think you may need is only what you want. And it may not come to you when you want it to. Forget how badly you seem to want it, for you have lived this long without it and surely you will not die now. You know it is not good for you to cling so tightly... so why can't you let it go? In your life, you must come to understand that there is so much that you cannot understand. And you must let it go.

That is all...thank you.